These are my thoughts right now: However restrained
or confused things might have been in the last week, it feels as though
a load of worry has been lifted off of my shoulders. I think this
mostly has to do with what was said at the retreat with my Bible study
and I am so grateful that I was able to attend that. It feels like
these last couple weeks, my thoughts have been divided in two
directions and I really haven’t been able to take a step in either
direction, for various reasons. I think I’ve finally made a decision as
to which way I will go and, strangely enough, it is not quite as
stressful as I thought it would be. It’s been in the back of my head,
all along, what the outcome of things might be–but we never truly know
how things are going to turn out. And it looks like instead of taking
one of the two options I first saw, a third has opened up to me. This
is vague and generalized, I know, but it’s really just the mental
release of a mind at peace. I am grateful and hopeful. I’m not saying
that everything is going to be peaches and sunshine from now on–but at
least now I feel like I’ve reminded myself of where I am and where I’m
ultimately headed.